So I have been a bit quiet on my blog at the moment as nothing has really compelled me to share my experiences. Well quite a lot has but that’s for another day!
Oddly enough I have been ‘managing’ and to be perfectly honest life at the moment could almost be classified as ‘normal’. This is when I realised I had something to write about! Normal, that is not a word I have used a lot recently!
So why is normal such as alien concept? This has baffled me but it’s because my normal now is not the same as my normal four years ago. I cling on to my ‘norm’ from before my injury and so everything now seems different. I push myself to enjoy my old norms and can often trip up. I am having to realise that I am normal for me now. I need to get to know the new me which appears to surprise me on a daily basis. I make myself laugh sometimes as I am starting to find myself quite interesting ( if I do say so myself!). I am also seeing things that I need to do differently and understanding why I do things. I am slowly learning to manage ‘me’ and am embracing rather than resisting changes.
The main thing I am coming to terms with is that I am normal (well I’m sure there maybe be a couple of objections to this view) . When I walk into a room I am Tamsyn now. I think when I walk into a room I am Tamsyn with a brain injury. In reality this is just me now. I am still learning every day but that’s becoming the norm rather than the focus .